Sunday, January 15, 2012

Reason's I Want to Lose Weight

Reason’s I Want to Lose Weight.

1. To be healthier - I’m sick of going to my yearly physical that is required by my job and worrying about what they are going to tell me. Is this going to be the year they put me on some kind of medication for something? I’m 30 years old. I don’t want to be on any kind of medication. It’s even sad that I’m thinking that. It speaks a lot about the world that we live in - that I’m even thinking that as being some sort of solution before I thought of losing weight. I also don’t want to be the one slowing people down when I go walking with them. I want to be able to keep up with everyone else and not sound like the big bad wolf when he huffs and puffs the house down.

2. To wear ’regular’ clothes - I want to walk into a regular store in the mall and walk out with a bag of clothes. I don’t want to have to go to the ‘bigger women’ store or section of the store. I want to wear cute boots and not have to worry about them fitting over my huge calves. I want to be able to wrap a regular towel around myself when I get out of the shower. I don’t want it to be one of the beach towels. How embarrassing is that?

3. To feel good about myself - Most people who know me might not know exactly how bad about myself I feel. For the most part, I’m the one usually cracking jokes and making most of my friends laugh. I enjoy being that person most of the time, but it covers how I REALLY feel. In the back of my mind I’m always thinking horrible thoughts when I’m out with my friends. Do people wonder what the fat girl is doing out with the skinny girls? When I’m out by myself, I imagine people staring at me, wondering how I let myself get this way. I wonder how I let myself get this way. I haven’t even had children yet & here I am struggling with my weight.

4. I want to fit EVERYWHERE! - People who have never lived this life don’t know this fear. It usually makes me sweat and puts me in a bad mood. I tend to lash out at others, not meaning to when I get nervous about things like this, but it’s very embarrassing to me. I’m 5 foot so what extra weight I have is not dispersed in a whole lot of places. I have a large stomach. I don’t want to wonder if I’m going to fit in the booth if we go out to eat. I don’t want to wonder if the seatbelt is going to fit over me in some else’s car. I don’t want to be the reason someone can’t get past me when I’m sitting in the break room at work.

I have a lot more reasons that I want to lose weight, but these are the ones that are the most shameful for me. These are the reasons that I most want to lose weight. I’m leaving these here for a reminder that nothing tastes as good as being in shape feels.


  1. Not only are you on the right track for achieving your goal your tank is filled with the right kind of "fuel." Your motivation is right on the money. My advice to you is to connect the emotional motivation with something physical. The "wanting to fit everywhere" goal is a good example of that.

    The strides you've made in only a couple of weeks is evidence that you can do it.

    I love and believe in both Michael and you. I'm proud of your new goals. But its hard for me to remember that this is your battle and I can't fight it for you.

    BTW I feel really bad about not being more supportive last night. I really shouldn't have gotten popcorn. Hope it didn't bother you or cause you any frustration. Next time I'll be more considerate.

    Since I have been where you are and continue to battle with losing weight I will offer what encouragement I can.

    I know the exercise thing is difficult to start but it's really important for losing weight and your overall health.

    If you want to come use our stationary bike you're welcome any time. I'll even go walking with you.

    Didn't mean for this to be such a long comment. I just wanted to offer my support.

    Talk to you soon.

  2. Oh, Heather. I love your honesty and I love this blog. You motivate me. I cannot wait to read more. Maybe we should add this to our monthly meeting goals! Thanks for sharing your journey.

  3. @Ron, please don't feel bad at all. I didn't want any of that popcorn. I'm not a huge fan of movie popcorn anyway. You're right, this is my battle and I have to learn to fight it myself. I truly appreciate your support...more than you know!

    @Allison, Thank you! It's very hard to be honest, but I feel like it's something I'm going to have to do in order to be successful. We'll see about adding it to the monthly meeting!

  4. I am loving your blog. I am also proud of you for taking this step and being totally honest with the world.

    You inspire me!

  5. You are a wonderful, inspiring, beautiful human! I am right here with you on the weight-thing. I am tired of worrying about all of the social, physical & professional problems it causes.

    Anytime you want to come with me to the gym, let me know. We can pick out a time when no one else is there & play on all the machines! Otherwise, we should go walking around the caves & other pretty places when it is warm enough.

    Also, I adore you & your company. You make me feel loved and appreciated. I always have fun with you & enjoy doing silly things & going on random adventures. I know you have been busy, but we should make a trip to someplace close we have never been.

    I am proud of all of the changes you have been making in your life. We only get one shot at living & you are really getting right down to it.

    Good luck blogging & on all of your new adventures! You deserve every good thing in your life!