Sunday, January 15, 2012
Reason's I Want to Lose Weight
Reason’s I Want to Lose Weight.
1. To be healthier - I’m sick of going to my yearly physical that is required by my job and worrying about what they are going to tell me. Is this going to be the year they put me on some kind of medication for something? I’m 30 years old. I don’t want to be on any kind of medication. It’s even sad that I’m thinking that. It speaks a lot about the world that we live in - that I’m even thinking that as being some sort of solution before I thought of losing weight. I also don’t want to be the one slowing people down when I go walking with them. I want to be able to keep up with everyone else and not sound like the big bad wolf when he huffs and puffs the house down.
2. To wear ’regular’ clothes - I want to walk into a regular store in the mall and walk out with a bag of clothes. I don’t want to have to go to the ‘bigger women’ store or section of the store. I want to wear cute boots and not have to worry about them fitting over my huge calves. I want to be able to wrap a regular towel around myself when I get out of the shower. I don’t want it to be one of the beach towels. How embarrassing is that?
3. To feel good about myself - Most people who know me might not know exactly how bad about myself I feel. For the most part, I’m the one usually cracking jokes and making most of my friends laugh. I enjoy being that person most of the time, but it covers how I REALLY feel. In the back of my mind I’m always thinking horrible thoughts when I’m out with my friends. Do people wonder what the fat girl is doing out with the skinny girls? When I’m out by myself, I imagine people staring at me, wondering how I let myself get this way. I wonder how I let myself get this way. I haven’t even had children yet & here I am struggling with my weight.
4. I want to fit EVERYWHERE! - People who have never lived this life don’t know this fear. It usually makes me sweat and puts me in a bad mood. I tend to lash out at others, not meaning to when I get nervous about things like this, but it’s very embarrassing to me. I’m 5 foot so what extra weight I have is not dispersed in a whole lot of places. I have a large stomach. I don’t want to wonder if I’m going to fit in the booth if we go out to eat. I don’t want to wonder if the seatbelt is going to fit over me in some else’s car. I don’t want to be the reason someone can’t get past me when I’m sitting in the break room at work.
I have a lot more reasons that I want to lose weight, but these are the ones that are the most shameful for me. These are the reasons that I most want to lose weight. I’m leaving these here for a reminder that nothing tastes as good as being in shape feels.